How may I express the inner turmoil I feel, when I don't know how I
can survive without you? You are all I have ever wanted in my life. You
brought me such joy and happiness, but now they appear to have only been
temporary. I was attracted to you from the very beginning. You were all
I thought of, and everyone I knew thought you were the best thing for
me. You embodied glamor, beauty, freedom, and even hope.
Over time
I came to the realization that you were not what I envisioned you to
be. On the outside you appealed to everyone, and your allure was
mesmerizing. It seems that everyone you touch is seduced by your
presence... but I have come to know you for who you really are. How will
I explain my detachment from you, when everyone seems to covet you so
dearly?
Yes, I was sucked into your twisted, perverted world
without even realizing it. The personal demands you have imposed on me
have become too much to endure. I have learned how you manipulate people
and judge people without cause, like a hustler in a futile game. I
observe how you toy with people's emotions, and poison their self-worth.
Those involved with you are oblivious to your heartless deception.
If
only they could comprehend your lack of compassion, your ability to
seduce through a cunning facade, they would understand your fictitious
entrapment. You care nothing about the difficulties people must endure. I
have come to despise your existence, but I am addicted by my need to
possess you. I don't know how to live without you. I find myself
engulfed in a state that is often confused, but compelled at the same
time.
This co-dependency is surely unhealthy, but there seems no
escape. My love-hate relationship with you is shared by others, yet
there is no one to confide in to help me rid myself of your bondage.
Should I bite the bullet, and just be grateful for what you can offer?
Should I accept the little pleasures you bring in my life, ignoring that
I deserve more?
I must face the glaring truth. The happiness and
serenity I seek, is being restricted by my obsessive involvement with
you. I will commit to exposing your illusive power! I want everyone to
know the truth about you. You do not belong with the living! You are
corrupt, a scam, and I now perceive you as a Bad Dream. One day your
name will represent the meaning of Corruption and Deceit!
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